I dont know why is this feeling not leaving me yet
I know it's not that hatred or whatsoever depressed feeelings which could make me an emotional person
It's that loving feeling that tells me that I cannot go with another person except you
Obsession ?
Craziness ?
I dont know but it isn't scary
It reminds me of the sweet stuffs we've experienced (at least i did)
the sweet fantasies which could hv turned out if we're to be together.
It's a rather beautiful feeling.
I can only hide it because I dont wanna scare you off.
I am alright.
Maybe the person who is supposed to replace you and walk you outta my life hasnt appeared yet
I understand that we wont get things back to like how we used to.
I just want this feeling to last for a bit longer because I need a break for my heart . :)
I am missing you - peacefully .
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it has been a relieve recently :)
But today i miss him off a sudden, and it's like very much.
Luckily it lasts for only a few minutes?
or should I say that I just miss the moments we spent :)
It's okay.
Now I can be even more stressful because I know that he deserves someone better
But I dunno
After that incident
I realized that things wont work the way I thought
so just let it be
maybe he does deserve a better person or I might be the one who knows hah !
Gonna pick up the pace to study
I dont wanna come back for supp paper LOL !
Time to face God
I love you Heavenly Father
You have been the one by my side
I know it
thanks !
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突然很想用中文打这一篇....
其实我是不是个傻瓜，
一直在等待大家都说"那不是"的那件事.....
是不是早在他告诉我的朋友说:没有.
那天开始,我就应该放手了呢?
就不用搞到自己现在每天都不开心....
或许我也是时候了...
将心门关上.....
感觉上像是很容易就被打开.....
可是应该一想起这件事, 就不会开了吧!
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okay was told to give up give up and give up on BOTH !!!!!!!!!!!! okkkkkk
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HAPPY CNY EVERYONE !!!!
OH it's so nice to be with my family and all to celebrate this festival :)
Everyone is having more or less the same activities throughout the CNY i guess :X
wish that everyone enjoy the moments !
hmm just now someone said : just because he doesnt like you thats why he nvr asks u out...
Owh... is it .....
speechless for a sec and smth is cracking inside me o.o
it's gonna be really sad for these 2 years i guess until the commitment comes to an end !
stay strong, i must !
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AH, someone shared a vietnamese ballad song yesterday..
was okay when i listened for the first time but now being very emotional because of it....
im in a total mess now, trying to make myself better by talking to another person who is so close to u...
you wont know how much it hurts when you dont talk to me like how you used to...
at least let me know that you dont like me?
tell to anyone who can pass me this message if you dont wanna tell me on your own...
ignoring me isnt the right choice because i will go hurting the others......
How i wish that i can stroke your face when you are asleep telling you how much i want to be with you
Now my heart is tearing listening to that song
I know it makes me very sad but still i wanna listen to it
being rather insane now...
do you know that by seeing how often you sign into FB simply makese my day without you talking to me...
an exclaimation mark can even brighten up a dull day of mine....
i dont need you to push me to ur fren.
tell me to stay away from you thats all if you dont want me....
My heart aches a lot...
thats not what i want i know
but im doing it because i m losing you at the moment
i dont want to hurt ur fren
i wish that he is treating me as a fren
nothing more than that
what can i do now?
stay away from you and watch you from far?
i really thought that u would like me
but it doesnt turn out this way
can i know what ur thinking?
i cannot hold this anymore .....
that song really depresses me....
blame myself for being stupid to listen and get addicted to it.....
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supposed it's a wonderful night ytd...
but now im unsure
when things become so uncertain
do you really have that feelings for me
or we're just soulmates
i m curious
but im afraid to get the negative answer from you
i just wanna
live a happy lifeeeeee
i dont wanna get affected becz of this agn
it sucks
sigh
help me
tell me
ur feelings
do u
or
do u not ?
T_T
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