HELPLESS

supposed it's a wonderful night ytd...
but now im unsure
when things become so uncertain

do you really have that feelings for me 
or we're just soulmates

i m curious
but im afraid to get the negative answer from you

i just wanna
live a happy lifeeeeee

i dont wanna get affected becz of this agn

it sucks

sigh
help me

tell me
ur feelings

do u 
or 
do u not ? 
T_T

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SKIPS A BEAT !

OMG THATS HOW IT IS LIKE WHEN YOUR HEART SKIPS A BEAT!!!!

thank you so much sien ren , 
you are being a nice fren to actually 'stalk' my whole profile :) thanks a lot
you're the first one to remind me of my birthday , well cannot be compared to those who actually planned ahead for me for example my dear housemates and roommate :)

how good if baby ur the one who told me that ...
in fact
i scared you because of that status?
and u back off...
it's alright
time to let go......

gonna be sad but thats the only thing i can do 
life has to go on without you

heart is tearing (cries) and tearing (breaks) 

im so tired....

should hv slept earlier.....

God please lead me , i havent been to church for 3 weeks already zzz omg T_T

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UPSET

finally u opened ur mouth and ask for a date but wtf is that when im supposed to meet u because u want to introduce ur fren and u want to meet another person?

freaking sucks i would rather that you hv never tried to ask?

i heard a cracking sound from inside of me , baby i dont understand.

im confused

i dont know what to do

i cannot respond

just like how i did when i knew what u had told to my fren previously.......

this feeling sucks.

stop it

dont freaking fool me 

enough

stay away from me

if u dont give a damn about how i feel

T______T


needs someone by my side so badly now T_T 

hurts......

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Quote

A quote which suits you baby? :) and me ? 

"In life, you will have your heart broken more than once, go through painful experiences, have disappointing moments, face challenges, struggle to get through the day, over-think about certain things, have hardships and numerous dilemmas. It’s all part of life. Don’t forget that you’ll also have countless laughs, a beautiful smile to show the rest of the world, have something to look forward to, live for something, live by something, and remember that the bad times will not last long. I want to be by your side no matter what happens because that’s how much I love you. I want to be there when your tears fall, when you burst into laughter and hug you when you can’t sleep at night. I want to be that person who will help you get through life and spend everyday knowing that you’re mine…” - Quoted

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KLIA JOURNEY and HAPPY stuffs

WOOOOOWWWWWW
stayed overnight at KLIA to meet beloved KPOP artists

Seen BEAST SUJU B1A4 EXO CN BLUE FT ISLAND and YONGDAE + LCW 

OMG FAINTED

Spoken to yongdae about taking photo with him even though i got rejected 
Baro from B1A4 waved and smiled to ME !!! it's me because thrs only me and ONE FREN!!!!!!
we're not allowed to go near b1a4 but din know since we're done with our dinner that time.

HAPPY HAPPY 
but too bad din meet infinite and din get to see my KAI's face even it's from far

Baby. 
ur so sweet these days
i love you 
u nvr forget to nudge me each day ^.^
just cured my sickness 50% :)

i miss mom and dadddd a lot !!! gonnaaaaaaa study this page and get back to dear family of mine 

BUaiiii
used up a lot of energy to type this :(

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Awwww

Some friends are attending the 27th GDA thats gonna be held in Sepang circuit 
Envious 
But should be saving up for BAP and INFINITE :)

Had only 1 proper meal today...starved like crae jeeee LOL
had some biscuits which can never fulfill my lustttt !!

Baby had fun today :) 
I wish that I could give him the life that he is envious of 
good that he told me about that so I know what he wishes for

I wish to have that kind of life too in which I can do things that I have been passionate for 
Despite of having a hard time to deal with my work in the future ! 

All the best sweetheart
I love US :)

God Im sorrryyy omaigawd I only remembered this at last?????
I skipped sunday service today zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

><

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SIGH

It should be a happy day today !
Bought stuffs I like
just that i needa save up for concerts
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until
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you seemed to be annoyed when I asked you about that question T_T
I wish that I was the one who had been thinking too much
study is really the best way to forget about you
I thought i have already put down much
but
it hurts me when you replied that way
like seriously.....
baby please dont...
i dont know.....
how did i.....
so much....
i love you???

Im rather happy if ur fren thinks that way
but i know im selfish SUPER DUPER selfish to think that way
sigh
God please stop me T_T

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Been Through Ups and Downs

since the day i last posted here, I have been through a lot!

Test, conflicts and stuffs that i could barely remember now

Anyway, a better day always :) 

Thanks God for all

I am worried for my test but it has already passed so wishing the best to myself to at least pass it

Life is tough with this course LOL !

Baby I MISS YOU LOTS

Thats the reason I wanted to be here HEHEHE !!!

All the best on Sunday :) 

May my feeling for you lasts forever. 

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DRAMATIC

Oh for the past few days i was like a piece of dead meat knowing that
so called ' outcome '

Now i realized that it's good that we stay like this
I thank God for everything that you have done and given to me
Without You , i m far more worse than a  'NOTHING'

Baby, just want you to stay strong and firm all the time
I wish that u like me in return but i know it takes time
I wish that you're the right person

Hmm
hope to see you soon
I love you.

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Ballad Songs

Owhhh so when I start listening to the ballad songs, 
there goes my heart mind and soul
to a dead-state

Currently healing myself with Jay's 哪里都是你
It should be of hurting myself even more instead of healing 
zZz

I just cannot give up at this moment.

Thanks to your mate for sharing this song, 
otherwise might find it out late

Hmm I shouldnt be posting all the emo posts up here, 
so sorry thats currently how I feel,

Helpless not knowing whether I should give up or not
I said I can wait but im doing things that obviously showing my impatience 
So disappointed with myself
But will you please do something that can save me outta this? T_T 

You need the time i understand but guessing what you're thinking each time
is seriously exhausting
I get affected easily by you it's my problem
you have got nothing to do with it

Wishing that im gonna be better after expressing it here
I really dont wanna give up 
Because thats what we call love
at least 200 times more than a 'like' 
if people wont consider that as love yet...

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BACK

HAPPY 2013 EVERYONE !

Decided to blog again because of a personal reason ><
I cannot delete my old blog just because 
someone hacked into my hotmail account and 
changed all the setups causing the lost of password track and bla... :S
I will continue here though :)

I will neither log it nor tell to anyone about this blog yet.
I need a place to express myself !
In case anyone of you find out this is my blog, 
do leave a comment and notify me? :D
Guess that im gonna tell to some of my closest buddies :)

I should be feeling really depressed now but after the introduction, 
I do not feel like sharing anymore LOL :S probably later or next time .

~*^_^*~ - wonder if this is how my old signature looks like hehe !
소영 is gonna be the new signature
 since i do not look ^_^ for each and every post!